Change

Welcome to my new blog space! If you’re curious, you can read my old blog posts here. In the meantime, here’s the most recent blog post below first published June 27, 2014:

Goddamn change is scary. No matter how many times I move, change jobs, meet new people, say goodbye, etc. I’m constantly reminded how scary change is. I know it’s good for growth and all that hullabaloo but it doesn’t make it any less scary. Fear I think stops people from doing many things. It stops me from doing many things. We like being comfortable. We like our routines.

One quote that I think captures change well is from this old show called Everwood. Everwood was one of those teen drama shows on the WB that I obsessed over in my high school days. Pre-famous Chris Pratt was on the show and it was actually good. Not like that Gossip Girl/Vampire Diaries/Supernatural crap. Anyways, Ephram, the main character on the show, is discussing what his tragic flaw is and this is what he says:

“The more things change, the more they stay the same. I’m not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it’s the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw: my inability to change. I don’t think I’m alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it’s kind of everyone’s flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still… it feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected… who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse.

So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn’t seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You’re not a drug addict. You’re not killing anyone… except maybe yourself a little.

When we finally do change, I don’t think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we’re like this different person. I think it’s smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn’t even notice unless they looked at us really close. Which, thank God, they never do.

But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever… that you’ll never have to change again.”

The past couple years of my life have been full of changes. Welcome to your 20’s I guess. While change is scary it helps you grow, pushes you out of  your comfort zone, makes you discover things about yourself, blah blah blah.

In about a month I’m about to embark on a new chapter of my life. I’m moving to Vietnam to teach English at a university for a year. I’m quitting my job, taking a break from the “real world”, and being a crazy 20-something backpacker-type (again). Here’s to new adventures! I’M SO SCARED!!!!

I hope to use this blog to record my travels, teaching blunders, and tips on travel. Stay-tuned for an active blog (hopefully).

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